The end of 5th Semester Maret 9, 2009
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07-03-2009 semester5 out !!!
fiuwh…..i really dunno what to say about this feeling…
should i be happy or cheerful or somewhat thinking crazy about
the difficulties in the upcoming semester….
but i really wanted to spent this whole month holiday for sinking
my self with a lotta fun things either with friends or families….or foes maybe…..coz it doesn’t matter u know….
after finishing the event projects…and final exam on this hard serious muddy fuddy duddy semester….i should be thinking what to do next..
moreover with the seminar, grande finale exam and the last thing that kicks ass is the the FINALE ASSIGNMENT, which would be the Tugas Akhir….i find myself in deepshit of a situation…but i’ll do my best on this matter…to fulfill my dreams…to go to france,paris precisely and had a final slap on rounding the globe to see cultures around the world…be4 i finally got my self rest in God’s side AMEN…..
Shallow Love Part Deux(2) / (en France) Maret 9, 2009
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23-02-2009 – truthseeker after the D-day
God, i’m really feeling it this time….
started out of nothing to expect with the condition
only hoped just it just runs well
but when it started seeing her in a red dress up on that stage…
oh my….i can’t take it anymore
i dont know how to express it anyway…but to keep it to my heart…
really i dont know how to act with this situation…
God, help me with this circumstances…
i really want to meet and get to know her further..
and be her beloved one…one day…
it’s been so long since i felt the love that grows since the first met
will U, God help me out this time or this feeling will remain unsaid
and tear me apart for this feeling
watching u up on that stage makes this feeling going stronger and stronger…but how culd i deliver it to the next level
since i dont know her and she doesnt know me as well…
tried to refeel the atmosphere back in that day is so much fun and crushing me also…since u’re just like the goddess and me..just an ordinary person who fell this strong feeling of loving and caring to u…
Lord, is this my true feelings or what?
please make my wishes true, at least a chance to get to know her…
i really beg you Lord…please help me out….
Shallow Love / Roman Picisan (based on that stupid FTV) Maret 9, 2009
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First time looked at her, i feel xoxo but then when I know more about her, i make myself care to her and feel to make her secured and curious about her status and state of mind. But then i realize my buds also adore her so much and wanted to “have” her so much in the first place. But again he is my buds, what can i say about this peculiar condition that make me i don’t really know how to describe it in a word. The more i talk and share thoughts with her, the more the feelings that i have keep stronger and stronger. I don’t really know what has The Lord wants, but It forced me to walk through my dreams and worsely I kissed her and play my finger to her self priority dignity. Oh God please tell me what you’re planning to do. My mom said if you really wanted something in your belongings and you’re dreaming in your sleep about it, then you won’t get it. I feel my self afraid of this state. But this is not something but someone.It really happened when i wanted a console, and till now it’s not in my hand and also other things too.I really hope that this won’t backfire me again. Because I’m quite sure about this feeling and really intend to have a word and state my sense to her, but don’t know when and how it would be accomplished by then.
ANGER ANGER ANGER Maret 9, 2009
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Anger, that’s what i feel right now. Disorder life, different kind of living style, bad attitude.Damn suck this shit circumstances. I wanna get out of this horrible life being with maniacs and hedonists. I swear to god after this period, i won’t consider my life being taken like this which happening to me right now. Just cracked my lungs, rip off my eyeballs, crashed my veins. Get out and mind your own business, don’t ever look or say some shit to me again-not at all.
It’s like I wanna murder them all with my own bare hands, but sins make me things thousands times.
I have my body and my soul belong to the Almighty, then I must follow the route to It’s rules and play safe as possible and as hard as I could.
Thats’s what keeps me stay alive in this mocking world. Really !!!
killing TIME, is IT POSSIBLE ???? Maret 9, 2009
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Rested a day, goin’ without pep talk
makes you weaker and also tougher at the inside.
Weak side could approach your sense in not knowing what to deal but makes you tougher by being encouraged to do something on your own to make your life continues until the Almighty makes a call to send us back to our steady place.
Sitting straight eye to eye to your case of datas configuring what you’re trying to do in seasons ahead. Songs just passing through time to time, try to enjoy them but none of them worked. Use your spare time to fill them with positive ideas for your upcoming sense result both in heart and brain.
Commas, dots are all sign from the Lord to refresh and reconciliate our state of mind and heart to what should be done in the upcoming future. We could draw what we like in our life, we could make it darker or lighter depends on what we did in our life. Youth time is some kinda ages of searching for their own true identity, but we really should try to configure ours in a mannered way, i mean u know what i mean aight?
